Well, today I am going back to the doctor for an ultrasound. When I imagined saying that...it was supposed to be to see our child. But, instead, it's to see if I have any fibroid tumors. I admit, I am very scared. Not necessarily of the ultrasound itself, but, of the results. There are reasons why it's not our time to bring a child into this world. I know God has a plan for us, but sometimes it's so hard to wait and see what it is. I know everything is in His hands and I need to be at peace.
It's just so hard when I walk out of the doctors office and see 4 teenage girls that are probably maybe 16, pregnant. I just wonder...why do they get to have children..but I don't. I know one day it will happen...but the wait is driving me crazy. But, it's in His hands and all I can do is continue to pray.
Faith has to do with things that are not seen and hope with things that are not at hand.
--Saint Thomas Aquinas
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Wow! We're going to praying for you, Hil. Let us know what you find out at the Dr.
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